Friday, July 30, 2010

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Walking the streets of Vienna
smelling everything in his path
fine clothes and elegant smiles
over damp roads and rotten fruits
Leading his soul to unquenchable thirst
for something he can never have
always within reach
but never to be acquired

Unsettling and unnerving at the same time
Scent blends into colors
He closes in on the real target
the blonde in gold trinkets
She was a fine specimen
as if God pad his full attention
should complete a commoner's day
of working in the fields
to see her walk by
during the afternoon break

An entourage of torn souls
following her footsteps
as he follows her with his gaze
Soon they depart
and she alone walking by herself
as her scent fills the whole of Graben
Gentlemen offer the purest
act of worship to the demigod in her
whether by lust or be resentment
And the ladies offer the worst
smirks and thoughts of revilement
whether by jealousy or insecurity
But his offer is of surrender
in clenched fists and gritting teeth
in his mind coupled with quiet steps
One by one advancing towards her rear
An act itself
of clarity and enlightenment
of heavens speaking
and sweetest music playing

He closes in
studying his prey
sniffs every bit
of her soul and spirit
She was unaware
under her own blank snare
as she contemplates
her coming nuptial
caressing the ring
in her left finger
of white dresses and flowers
Almost there
Her fiancé will be here tomorrow
as they fulfill their vow
to be with each other
in happiness and in sorrow

An inch in between
his nose and her hair
He imagines what will happen
Grab her by the head
Keep her mouth shut
Break the neck
Pull her out of the night

A second later
he does this
in a split second
she was his

He leaves no trace
as he sucks the life out of her
and a presumptuous scare
being her last emotion
and she slips into oblivion
Sleeping quietly under the shadow
of Palais Equitable's open window
little did she know
the great charity endowed
as he leaves no trace
of the deadly embrace
now he has to race
had to leave the place
carrying her dead body
to a distant shanty
unbeknownst to anybody
a dark sanctuary

The smell grows thicker
of her dying slumber
Now he begins the process
of reconstructing in the aether
her soul and essence
trapped in her scent
He filters all unwanted variables
collects the rest with his crucible
Smiling at the rigidity in bereavement
and the delicate nature of the experiment
Slow and steady
hands never shaky
tired and weary
But now closer to infinity

He notices her ring
studies it
Eighty liras maybe
could be too dangerous
for an identifying object
He throws it away
Far into the night sky
a distant ring heralds it's downfall
now a forgotten lullaby

And so it is done
an ounce of liquid
trapped in a vessel
he holds in his hand
The scent is there
contained forever
As he contemplates
the nature of our anatomies
How a small vial
can contain such fecundity
Of what constitutes
our sense of self
Of what we see
in mirror
Of who we speak to
when we are alone
All of it
in a singularity of sorts
A triumphant imagery
of a scientific ecstasy

No he walks away
to greet the dawn
thanking his maker and muse
for a job well done
The rest is dumped on the furnace
the treasure in his pocket
Nobody seems to notice
another missing figure
from a dense city like this
He knows in his heart
as with the latest to depart
her life was not wasted
in the interest of objective inquiry
to which she unknowingly participated
Then he shall impart
the knowledge to the next generation
of seekers and sages
who require the sacrifice
from the rest of mankind
From geniuses like him
and the chosen like her
Both their kinds
are supposed to be venerated
and supported
and respected
But for now
everything has to be done
in the spirit of a dark secret
For if the masses knew of it
his kind shall face
the untimely death
Just like he did
with his test subject

Thursday, July 29, 2010

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Bound for glory
Let me tell you a story
A drunken revelry
and a religious ecstasy
It's getting on me
I'm getting weary
we push to our limits
Aiming for the final hit
Bell was rang
And for a second time
Candle dimly lit
Book read in a bit
Just one last chime
One of he gods smiled
Looked upon his child
Forgot the gruesome crime

Bound for glory
we continue the story
A deafening agony
Of a mortal wannabe
I'm out of energy
At the last of my ropes
Back on a corner
No glimmer of hope
Colors revolve
as so are the elements
Need to read the journal
ever useful sentiments
We worked clockwise
Took care of the giant
Demon got out smiling
time to call the mendicant
Everything went as expected
for we cheated our way here
Not interested in the challenge
Only for a story clear

Bound for glory
such is the story
A burden so heavy
for someone like me
Failing to see
what was meant to be
I followed the whims
of beings heavenly
Expected too much
from their charity
Was naive in thinking
have I been drinking?
Or just a cruel twist of fate
for a mind grown too late

Bound for glory
this is my story
A friend at my mercy
entrusted on me
Had to deliver salvation
to grant him realization
and the energy
and the resolve
and the will
to decide his destiny
to be good or evil
to be hard-headed or to repent
to accept or resent
In the end
he seem to be compliant
Of the deliverance meant
for his unique predicament

Bound for glory
I tire of this story
Please remember me
when heaven bound already

Bound for glory
end of the story
Please remember me
For t'was I who set you free

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

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Things are dull from a commoner's view
Just as the sun that rises up anew
That we see everyday and mind it not
For we are so used to it, bright and hot
Showering light and life to everything
Giving the end to the night and to all dreams
Yet we think of our work and sex and school
And money and TV and trying to look cool
We think of small things that matter not
In the grand scheme of things they seem like dust
Our minds preoccupied with our short existence
Our souls withering without sustenance

We see faces in our daily walk
And we forget the souls that make them talk
We smell smoke from cars travelling in extravagance
And forget to smell the flowers in their fragrance
We listen to downloaded MP3 for our inspiration
And forget just how close we are to losing our habitation
We savor fast food that make us weak and dumb and fat
And forget the healthy sustenance our parents forced us in the past
We touch ourselves as we go to sleep
And forget to recite the prayer "my soul to keep"
We speak of volumes of our knowledge
And forget the wisdom that should have been our heritage

So we travel blind in the
dark corridor of despair and death
Holding a torch but kept a
blindfold tightly braced in our heads
Talking to ourselves in order
to forget the fact that we are lost
And keeping imaginary friends
charms on beds, sigils on the light post
And when we find somebody else
struggling though that same road
Are we so eager to ask for directions
knowing that he, too,
is blind and lost
struggling defiantly with the same load

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I dip my eyes in darkness
and heaven understood it to be reprisal
My soul stared blankly into nothingness
and the gods forbade my inquiry
I assumed the bard's role to tell tales
and the overlord deemed it all unnecessary
My spirit long to rekindle the passion of creation
yet the spirits of the land sensed fatality in my actions

Do we as mortals get to choose what we see
and what we hear, and what we know
Or do we just play into the hands of some
invisible weaver arranging strands in the snow
Do we of feeble minds realize what we are here for
Or do we just just walk our lives in clueless stupor

I wrote my story in a parchment with blood
and the grand chronicler excluded it from the annals of history
I strove to win just to be able to write my own story
and the arbiter of wisdom saw it as an insanity
I yelled on top of my lungs that my fate be changed
Lo and behold - it did; out of the fine excuse for civility

Friday, July 23, 2010

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Bleeding profusely under the guise of conversation
My doppelgänger staring vividly into my eye
Flying thoughts and horrific imagination
Painting an all too different color into the situation

Bleeding profusely as I grasp for air
Everything else is just a symptom of my despair
Ever changing wind and ever present vision
Painting an all too different color into the situation

Bleeding half past dead, doctor says
Calculating bits, giving hints on my medication
Sky is the limit for you boy, I remember he said
Unless your surrender provides a suitable refutation
To what I shall surmise as the prevalent misinterpretation
of the auspices and lack of understanding in my profession
With your suspicions, they do not help at all
But I digress; there is much to learn from your predicament
Even as to someone doing these for many springs and fall
dying is not an escape but another in a long series of sacraments

Bleeding profusely, I tried to smile
Half-wit as it seems, but never a lie
Sun, moon and stars and all that shines
Painting them all too different, violent, vile

Bleeding stops, and so is breathing
I see dead people walking
There goes the abyss, sending forth its congratulations
Painting an all too different color into the situation

Thursday, July 22, 2010

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As soon as the ebb of the sea changes course
do we find ourselves in front of a crossroad
Where we choose to open which doors
what to close and where to go

It is not limited to vagabonds nor wanderers
certainly not limited to searchers and travelers
It is how life unfolds to each and everyone
Whether we like it or not, thy will be done

It is not something we can take for granted
Not something we can wish to never happen
As the choice determines the rest of the journey
Itself composed of many more choices
and many more experiences
and many more faces
until strength is forgotten
and our memory weakens

Today I see such a crossroad
Like the one I saw days before
A never ending puzzle, here once more
A restless hymn, an ever present ode

To which I also wish of something I'll never know
Until I see how my choice went to grow
To know the consequences of my path
To realize what is beyond the road and its aftermath